I had a dream last night, where someone told me I could just ask my body what was wrong. And it would tell me. I woke up feeling so happy. Because it seemed so true. Yes, I could just ask my body what was wrong with it! And then it would tell me and then I could fix it.
So today I sat on the bench, and I asked my body, “Hey, what’s wrong? Why are you sick?” And my body said, “I’m just deeply tired. I’m tired of trying to do it all.” And I thought, but if I don’t try and do it all, won’t everything fall apart? Nothing will get done. Like imagine if I literally just sat here on the bank of the river and just watched the river flow by and just trusted that everything would come to me or would flow to me.
I want to believe this. But I find it hard to believe. When I told my body this, it just smiled wisely and wearily at me.
— Catherine